WHAT was up with this day?
Okay, so I woke up and I was in an insanely good mood and I was wired beyond belief. That lasted for most of the morning. I wish I felt like that all the time.
The afternoon was not nearly as cool for me. I don't even know how to explain the feeling. It was like a nothing mood that made me feel physically ill. It kind of felt like all of my emotions beating the shit out of eachother and the result was just, nothing really. Emotions killing eachother off. It left me wanting nothing but to sleep for most of the afternoon and into the evening (apologies to mom, for me not cleaning the floor today). The feeling didn't, and hasn't really got any better, yet. I'm sure it will. I thought I'd mention it, cuz it's been a bit of a reaccuring feeling, and I wish I knew how to explain it, the feeling, that is. I cry way more than I should and I don't even know why half the time. It's become almost a bad habbit. All of this starting to wear on me, mentally and physically, but I know it will get better.
A lot of it has to do with someone I miss a lot. I've never felt this before.
...
I think I'm starting ("starting" being a VERY key word there) to get a bit of clarity in my life and starting to feel a little more sure of myself. It feels good, overall.
So far.
So far everything has gone quite smoothly. And that's the story of my life.
I'm out for the night.
A little shout out to my little squirrel friends. hah..what???
Love you all with my crazy little heart.
Bex
